between our wants, our need

about

It is the first time we are sleeping together. With my legs thrown over my head, I pull a glass of wine and a potted plant down onto my chest, covering us in red wine and soil. We jump up, making an instantaneous switch from full body immersion to awkward flapping; shock transforms into apologies, embarrassment into laughter.

Nine months later, we share this bed each night, a global pandemic rendering us temporary roommates. Together, we return to the memory of our first fuck and imagine it anew through a series of performance experiments, video and image works, and a short contextual essay, how do i know you see me?

I’m searching for fleeting moments of connection, textures and frictions between performer and viewer that might generate pleasure and discomfort, abrasions to a fixed sense of selfhood, and empathies that can survive not seeing eye-to-eye. Layers of intimacy and dislocation, piling one on top of another. Singular experiences swallowed into the whole, then regurgitated.

works

between our wants, our need is a text and video work which emerged from a practice of daily automatic writing. It imagines what I might say if I had the chance to return to that moment, unravelling questions of desire, gender and subjectivity.

this is a performance for one

i invite you to watch it from your bed

it remembers the first time we slept together, in october

when we were interrupted by a falling glass of wine and a potted plant.

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reenactment marks a literal attempt to recreate the first time we slept together. It was a performance seen only by Tristan and I, documented through video and shared only as a single frame.

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skin 1, 2 and 3 are an accompanying photo series, a textural and somatic exploration of our proximity. Made in collaboration with Tristan Albrecht.